127. Reputations

What you have already done and been usually contributes to what you do and who you are now. You may do all you can to wipe the slate as clean as you can get it. You may turn over a new leaf, and really keep to your new ways, but your past doesn’t go away. Bygones, unfortunately, are rarely just bygones.
Part of the reason starts out internally. To some degree, you are who you are, and the cleanest slate in the world won’t change that. I’ve heard it said that no matter where you go, when you get off the plane, there you are. Part of the reason has to do with the way other people see you. Some of them, at least, cling to their view of you, and the way they see you defines you, to some degree. And of course, you may end up internalizing the way you’re seen. So you become and do what your reputation tells you to become and do.
The child who got in trouble last year may resolve, “This year I’ll be good. I’ll do everything the
way I’m supposed to. I’ll make my parents and teachers proud of me.” I remember starting school years that way as a child. I was going to take notes, do all my homework and remember to hand it in, and not talk when I wasn’t supposed to. I sometimes wanted to tell teachers about such resolutions, but for all I knew, they didn’t know about my problems. And why should I tell them? The parents also have reputations: “Oh, you have Sidney this year? He’s a joy, but his parents!” Over coffee in the teachers’ room, your ideosyncrasies are described to the teacher who will soon be teaching your child. It isn’t fair. You may seem overprotective, scattered, neglectful, or whatever, but that’s not what you are. Or at least it’s not all you are. They have no right to talk about you that way. And then there’s the teacher’s reputation. “Make sure your child is in Ms. McNortlehelm’s class. She really has her act together. Ms. Repirtinjek means well, but she just can’t seem to tune in to the children’s needs. Ms. McNortlehelm has a gentle but structured style; Ms. Repirtinjek tries to, but doesn’t, and never has, and the children know it from day one.” Of course, part of the reason they know – maybe a major part – is the reputation produced by the rumor mill. There is a good reason for these rumors. It’s good to be prepared for what may happen. It’s good to have a way to avoid destructive situations. Sometimes rumors are all you have. But rumors may be all they are.

Similar Posts

  • 510. Little

    ByJoe Oliverio

    I remember the first time a very young child came to me and started a story with “Mr. Blue, when I was little…” I did manage to keep myself from laughing out loud, but I thoroughly enjoyed hearing that opening line. There I was, over twenty years old, hearing a six year old child reminisce…

  • 415. The Regular Way

    ByJoe Oliverio

    People who feel secure often like to try new things. That’s because even though security is great, it’s not all there is, and people do get bored doing what they’ve always done in the way they’ve always done it. Even if they do it very well, and even if they get lots of appreciation. We…

  • 573. Bit by Bit

    ByJoe Oliverio

    There’s a simple truth that can make teaching, learning, and the rest of life much more possible, even when they’re starting to seem just about out of the question: if a job is too big, it often helps to break it up into smaller parts. We don’t have to get overwhelmed and give up. We…

  • 521. Good-bye

    ByJoe Oliverio

    People move to different homes a lot more than they used to. It’s a lot harder to develop a sense of community than it used to be; stability makes community easier, and stability isn’t around as much any more. But there are still connections children and other people make, and I think it’s important to…

  • 550. Teaching Reading

    ByJoe Oliverio

    When my younger daughter, Lara, was three years old, I saw her looking at a book. That was pretty normal, I thought. But then she spontaneously started reading it out loud. At the time, I was taking courses in the teaching of reading, and nothing I’d learned in these courses had prepared me to hear…